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Friday, October 30, 2009
Hell. Nightmare. torture. Suffering. Punishment. HAS THE OLD MAN GONE MENTAL? This is not happening to us. Screw cluster. screw you. Hope you're happy with our soon to come results. Cause we don't give a damn. Cheers High and Mighty wannabe. 2:52 PM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I meant all of us. FEELING GUILTY? I am. Damn. 4:59 PM
Friday, October 16, 2009
AAAG. HAPPY SWEET 16 TO ARIANNE AMANDA. SORRY I DIDN'T WISH YOU EARLIER. HOPE YOU HAVE A BLAST AND BEST WISHES ALWAYS. HOPE YOU READ THIS STUFF. You know i love ya. Even when the world comes crashing down. 11:11 PM
Fall flat. So, today was an unexpected day. For the first time in my whole secondary school life, i was late. Like 10 minutes after the examinations started. A part of me was glad that it was English. My so called best subject but part of me wanted to die when i saw the Questions. But alas, i did not give up hope. yada yada yada. Moral values, moral values. It started with me waking up at 6.30am and rushing my ass off the bed and running down the stairs and more running through the kitchen door but that where it all starts to change. I fell, like really ultimately painfully fell. And it was very painful. I screamed and it was just hurting so bad that i couldn't stand up. How shitty is that? And my time was running out. My right knee hit the wall and i could actually feel my blood not flowing for a minute there. It was like as if i was dead for a while. I also thought that my leg was broken. All i did was sat down and try to take in the aching. My vision was blur for a few minutes. I think i wanted to pass out. That was my first time experiencing my nearly passed out moment. I couldn't see and so i decided not to go to school. Chris helped me up to my room so i could lie down and when i opened my eyes, i could see clearly again. Whew, Thank goodness. My aunt said that the sudden pain in my knee affected my eyes. Must be something scientific. So, i didn't bother. My parents came running into my room like i was about to die or something. Guess, they were just panicked. I cried like shit. embarrassing. And while i was at it i was saying "exam,exam." Like it's a big deal. Chyeeah right it is! So, yeah went to school at 6.50am and reached school at about 7.07am. I couldn't run or walk fast. It was obvious that i was walking really slow and really weird. Reached class at about 7.15am. I could do way better if it wasn't for the knee. But, i am not jinxing it. So, exams have started and people looked at me and i just head into class. Teacher gave me the papers and i started. Funny, cause i was in pain but i was also annoyed for the fact that i didn't have enough papers. I had to walk all over the class just to get the papers. I though teachers were suppose to do that. NGEK! So wrong. But yeah, i lasted. I am not dead. The pain is getting much worse. All i can do is read and sleep and eat. Even lying down feels like hell. But, at least i won't have to do so much. Haha. Hmmmmmmmmmmm, guess i am gonna wake up tomorrow feeling more worse than i felt today. Great. Something to look forward to! UHWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Night boys and girls. You know i give you props. Haha. 9:46 PM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Foul language. Do you feel offended by me? If yes, i am truly sorry for i have come to decide that i'll be better. :) 8:35 PM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Guilty A Students.< CHEATERS. 6:25 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Safe. This is it. I am excited but i am also paranoid of what could happen. So, let's pray we'll have a safe flight and an awesome landing. Cause Kuala Lumpur, here we come. We may be just two teenagers who lost faith in what you have to give us but to hell, we're still going and still looking positively positive. We moved along from all those hatchets. I think, you should too. So, Goodbye my wonderful people of Sabah. I'll be back soon! Wahahahaa. p.s. Walaupun bukan jauh betul tu KL, sa masih mo show off bah. Masih mo naik kapal terbang juga bah kan? hahahaa. And life, I'm flowing with it! 9:07 AM
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Defense. Back me down from backing up. Hold your breath now it's stacking up. Etched with marks but i can deal. And you're the problem and you can't feel. Try this on straitjacket feeling. So maybe i won't be alone. Take back now my life you're stealin'. Yesterday was hell, But today i'm fine without you. Run away this time without you. And all i ever thought you'd be. That face is tearing holes in me again. Trust you is just one defense. With a list of others you don't make sense. Beg me time and time again. To take you back now but you can't win. And when that memory slips away. There will be a better view from here And only lonesome you remains. And just the thought of you i fear, Grip falls away Yesterday was hell, But today i'm fine without you. You're right, we may die anytime, life is too short. So, hit me with your best shot. Cause i am going for a roller-coaster ride. 8:26 PM
Straitjacket feeling. I don't know what's wrong with us, what's wrong with fate, what's wrong with you, what's wrong with me? What's up with them? I don't know anymore. I am just not certain. Everything's unpredictable anymore. I don't give a shit about it. I do care. I swear, i slap myself. Im happy and yet i cry for no reason. I have high hopes and I fall apart. Im angry and yes, i am an actress. I love but i don't feel loved. I hope and i despise. I cure and im scarred. I am in pain but i laugh it off. I cheer but i am jealous. I smile but i am torn. I listen but i don't think. I see you but i don't feel. I shout but i hold it in. I dream but i don't fulfill them. I am excited but i am in fear. I love you but i also hate you. All these things in life, i just don't know anymore. There's nothing much i can deal anyways. I am left here with nothing but with the ability to use and cherish it. But, i just don't give a damn. I just, Don't know anymore. 8:13 PM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
AM i gonna die? DON'T FIGHT THE CURRENT, FLOW WITH IT. I wish it was easier done than said. 8:50 PM
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
So i say, I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before But I have a talent, a wonderful thing 'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing I’m so grateful and proud All I want is to sing it out loud So I say Thank you for the music, the songs I’m singing Thanks for all the joy they’re bringing Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty What would life be, without a song or a dance, what are we So I say, thank you for the music, for giving it to me. Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk Mm-mm, she says I began to sing long before I could talk And I’ve often wondered, how did it all start Who found out that nothing can capture a heart like a melody can Well, whoever it was, I’m a fan I’ve been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair I wanna sing it out to everybody What a joy, what a life, what a chance So I say Thank you for the music, the songs I’m singing Thanks for all the joy they’re bringing Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty What would life be, without a song or a dance, what are we So I say, thank you for the music, for giving it to me. 7:14 PM
Two worlds collide but in a wrong way.. I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY DUDE. YES! HOLIDAYS! WOOHOO. I am soooo glad that we're having a week of holidays. Sigh. This year had the most holidays and im loving it. And the monkey is throwing tantrums and not apologizing yet. That was a bad joke dude. Don't do it again. And Na, Hope your friend will get better soon. Hopeful thinking. And Ena packed like a crazy woman. well, i guess that's why people love her. Cause she's crazy and she doesn't give a friggin shit about it. And well, he is starting to get better. Woohoo. :) And merald, i miss your sotness. LOL. School was fine. Good actually. Nothing to complain about. So, see you all next week. LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED! Kidding. We so need to study. Like OMFG study. Totally. Cheers. 4:48 PM
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Cheesetarts. Okay, i read back what i wrote last night and woah. Ena and i were being suck freaks. Haha, but i gotta admit it was fun and i really do miss the show Bambi. It used to be my all time favorite. I guess times have change just like how I've changed. Anyways, 1 more week to vacaycay! Woohoo! Ohh Ty, Get well soon. I love you. I hope you know that. HEHE. School tomorrow. Let me tell you why i dread Mondays. 1. It's the first day of the school week. 2. The homework that i've been collecting are now so hard to organize and to finish. 3. It feels like Mondays are such looonnnggggggg days. 4. I am awfully sleepy on Mondays. And i still don't have the slightest idea why. Why is school fun? 1. Butts are everywhere. Oh yeah, so i was cleaning out my closet that day and i saw a singlet that says "100% BITCH" in the front and at the back it says "GOTTA PROBLEM WITH THAT?". I forgotten about that singlet. It used to be my sister's but i guess she has forgotten about it too. If only i have the *censored* to wear it. Sigh. But i don't. But i don't have to since most of you think i was born with that specialty. So yeah. That wasn't interesting at all huh? hahaa. I AM GOING TO KL!!!. That was fcuking interesting to me. Whew. It felt like i was being run over by a truck and i had the chance to escape when i said that. I am that anticipated. So, see you guys when i see you guys. Just smile and the world will smile with you. Gosh, i love that song. Send it on people! Drop dead sleepy fats. 1:22 PM
oh, thumper. Mr Thumper, what if i have something nice to say? Can i say it? Thumper: Oh yes you may lil missy. What a sweetheart you are. *gives me a hug* ME: Awwww, thanks thumper. *coughs*. I would like to make a really short speech oh and also a really simple one to my best friend. I adore you for your spirit and determination on giving my show a continuation of how a great person i am. Thank you for telling the whole world. Thank you also for always thinking and spreading good news about me. You are the greatest! :) :) :) I am so happy i have a friend like you. Muahs! Thumper: That's the sweetest ever sugar! You are so going to have a good life. ME:Thank you thumps. And i mean it! Goodnight peeps! <3 *takes out a paper bag* 1:11 AM
5 foot 10 and Bambi eyes.  If you got nothing nice to say, don't say nothing at all. Thumper, Bambi. 1:06 AM
Oops. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I just shitted. oopseehhh! I said i ain't gonna shit no more but i guess i couldn't help it. I guess ma fairy godmother wanted me to be healthy. Get rid of all that nasty shit. "ooh baby, i know you feeling a whole lot better. You can't hold it in huh?", it said to me. I cannot tahan bah. You know, if you want shit, im gonna give you a piece of *censored*. 1:01 AM
I vow. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I don't feel like shitting anymore. I will not shit anymore!! I promise. 12:59 AM
i thought i thought i thought i saw a pussycat. I thought you fcuking don't care anymore. oh well, guess i am just irresistible. Anwyays, life sucks again. But maybe it's a blessing in disguise. :O Hope so. 12:19 AM
Friday, October 2, 2009
Sore. Woah. Seems like i have not been updating lately. Forgive me. I kinda have tons to talk about and also there's this urge for writing it all down but i don't know. I guess i'm just.. lazy. Haha, go figure. Anyways, i'll make it so short and so simple that at the end of this post you'll be like "wtf, that's all?". Kidding, that was just to make myself smile. Moving on. I AM SHITTINGLY GOING TO KL. Yup,the goal was to get the tickets and persuade the parents and book the flight tickets. Goal=Achieved. Thank you for those who gave me hope and did not give me the chance to give up. Also, Thank you to those who i bugged when i was cranky and being such a biatch (i know in YOUR mind, i am always one. itungifashit.) Anyways, Thank you. I think all your advices helped me through it all. I'll try my very best to get autographs! :D Most important though, Thank you God. :) So, school this week has been. Well, surprisingly, fine. A lot of laughter. Funny friends i have. Though what we're talking about are mostly vulgar stuffs, which no parent wants their little baby to learn or say or think, i have to say that it's kinda funny. Only some. Hehe. And lessons are getting boring each and everyday. I feel like there's no point of going to school if we're not learning anything. But, of course i don't literally mean it. We kinda have to go to school. Which sucks. But, only sometimes. This week was fun and surprising. I have that vibe that October is going to be cool. Minus the killer exams. Yup, 50% fine. Haha, well, much finer than on the regular basis. Hopefully but i won't jinx it. I won't kill it. I'll just shut it. So, I wanna thank my mum for being so supportive on the KL trip. I forgot to mention this up there. But seriously Ma, you're the best for finally giving it up and finally deciding to go with us. Wahahahahaha. Ena, We're gonna rock it. Oops, won't jinx it. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. This is so far so great.:) You've got a face for a smile you know. A shame you waste it when you're breaking me slowly. But i've got a world of chances for you, chances that you're burning through. By the way, i love you. i guess i don't know how to show it. Sorry. Good night and sweet dreams. oops, this turned out to be out of the box. Got dynamite? 8:12 PM
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