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If life was a battlefield, I'd be the one living.
Ash. 19. I prefer simplicity.
"Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me and now I'm really getting tired of it. I just wanna put everything down and let go."
Music is basically the food to my soul. Literally.

Please stay, I don't bite.
Monday, March 30, 2009



hey hey hey.
i know i haven't been blogging. just been lazy and life has been pretty hectic. i decided not to take EST for extra subject since i can't even pass more than half of the subjects im taking now. yeah, life is all about taking risks and accepting the challenge. but oh well, i just don't think that's for me. had dance practice today, it was okay. had bits of trouble but we figured them out easily. thanks to madeline for her powerful gestures. haha, everyone danced great. no doubt we could pass through audition. =) school today was a bit blurry, felt really sleepy during physics and after that period everything was just a mess. Whew, what a noisy class we have. i wonder how Chua could sleep through all those noises. oh yeah, by the way, thanks to Sarah for the radio. your an angel. =D
woah, i have tons of homeworks. some of them are from last week, and i haven't even started. goossshhh. i couldn't complete my physics report peacefully because the important data is with miss Nadia and she's out now. well, i'll keep my fingers crossed so that she'll be back soon. oh yeah!
last Saturday, joannest bought me katy perry's album =)) i was extremely hyper, well, i don't think you could blame a big katy perry fan for receiving an original album right? so anyways, yeah, watched the unborn, freaking scary. should watch it. lots of hot people in it. hahhaa, well, im just gonna continue listening to katy perry now.
p.s. hey dudes, UPDATE your blogs.
till then,
i need to get taller. suggestions anyone? lol.
7:52 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009



i didn't get the taylor swift album since they haven't officially sell them in KK yet. instead, i got demi lovato's album. hopefully by this saturday, katy perry will be playing on my stereo. as for taylor swift. hopefully by next month i would get her album. =) so yeah, period now. aching like shit. need drugs. lol. off to watch the duchess.
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today ain't that bad. it was great actually. no failure today. just happy thoughts. =)
went to city mall with mum after school, came back around 5, yeah i know. i wanted to go down town just to buy taylor swift's album but then my mum was afraid of the terrible jam that would happen around 5-5.30pm.
bright side, we might go down town this friday. so i guess, sarah is all yours then nadia. only for that friday. hahaha.
or. or. or. or.
someone is going to buy it for me! woohoo. i hope the plan turns out well. i was so excited, don't fall down on me.
so, what's the hot topic this term? relationships. wow, every single person is talking about it. telling me that they're relationship is on the rocks and some are telling me that they're having the best feeling in their lives. yeah, well. kids. i mean, yeah. love, laugh. share. it doesn't mean more wonderful moments aint coming your way. so, my friends are dissapointed with their dudes. can't blame them, they are acting like real jackasses. wish i could hit them real hard on the brains. so not only do they think about what they did wrong but also they would mend their relationship back together.
neeeeeeeexxxxxxxxxxtttttttt. homeowrk has been less this week. no, i won't jinx it. it's pure paradise. it's a great feeling where you don't have to come home and worry about stacks and stacks of homework. it bothers me. it really does.
im really glad my bio passed and my sejarah too. but, wait till friday comes where we get to enter the most anticipated, interesting lab in the world.
physics lab oooohh. i know. it's one of a kind. not kidding. well, off to dinner. wish me luck on friday.
or, not.
cause i'd be wasting it on a E or a F.
6:20 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009




it's only monday and already im missing the holidays. that's howmuch i dread going to school. yeah, i meet my spastics but then i hate waking up early and thinking about all those ugly and crappy marks. not forgetting the stacks of homework. cruelty i say. so anyways, can't wait for the May 2 weeks holiday =D
school today was,
ugh. bummer. sigh.
a lot of teachers didn't came in. some were out of town and some were just plain lazy. they didn't even mark our test papers yet.
i guess that's fair when the students didn't do their homework. vice versa actually.
see how we're such a big happy family in 4Amanah? everyone works together. i wanted to put an idiom there but then i changed my mind. i would sound like a nutty teacher. other than that, today was fine. no homework actually. oh, except for the fact that my addmaths got 10 marks out of, well, 100. boy, am i proud. =D never had that low before. i don't mind actually since i know what's coming for me. i hate form 4. honeymoon year? screw you arts stream people. hahaha, i meant that in a good way. if i could change classes, i would go to 4D, where there is less stress and less noise. for goodness sake. shut your mouth for a few minutes. i would if i had your terrible terrible marks. geez, too quiet is too nerdy they say, but being too noisy is just plain hectic. come on, if were the noisiest but the most intelligent, it would be accepted i guess. not with only being noisy. i kinda hate it now. show offs.
on the contrary, the bright side that is, i didn't see hell face today.
yay. Though i had to wait at the school hall for about an hour to realize i was not going to be picked up if i didn't call anybody. had the chance to hang out with the dancers for a minute which was fine. off to dinner. don't miss me.
=)
6:45 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009





a random post on a random friday night. nothing much. so, what do we understand by the word hallelujah? is it just something you call 'whatever, so what?' i mean im not as holy as anyone would think i am. and no, i don't think it is only a word used in church but used as a word for being thankful. grateful for everything that has happened in our lives. my life actually, is nonetheless perfect, but heck, show me perfect and i'll give you my very best to be one. i would like to think that i was perfect or actually god-given naturally bright and oh so wonderful but that's just it you know? we can't get what we really want in life. the word perfection, i will never understand because in my life, nothing is perfect, everything, every living thing is just not perfect. i mean of course except for our almighty. that's all i know. but for what i have or have done all through out my life, i have been grateful and thankful. so, hallelujah. no matter how broken my hallelujah is, i bet if i stood up and kick ass, it won't be that broken anymore and i could actually think i was that perfect little girl. try thinking about it, how perfect can you be when your already great and bright? isn't that the only thing we need in life? great in archiving dreams and working hard for it. and being bright so that we could maintain the beauty of ourselves by choosing good products? lol. screw that. oh well, screw perfection. im good enough i guess.
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Thursday, March 19, 2009


Natasha Richardson dies at 45 after ski accident
March 18, 2009, 7:01 PM EST

NEW YORK (AP) -- Natasha Richardson, a gifted and precocious heiress to acting royalty whose career highlights included the film "Patty Hearst" and a Tony-winning performance in a stage revival of "Cabaret," died Wednesday at age 45 after suffering a head injury from a skiing accident.

Alan Nierob, the Los Angeles-based publicist for Richardson's husband Liam Neeson, confirmed her death in a written statement.

"Liam Neeson, his sons (Micheal and Daniel), and the entire family are shocked and devastated by the tragic death of their beloved Natasha," the statement said. "They are profoundly grateful for the support, love and prayers of everyone, and ask for privacy during this very difficult time."

The statement did not give details on the cause of death for Richardson, who suffered a head injury when she fell on a beginner's trail during a private ski lesson at the luxury Mont Tremblant ski resort in Quebec. She was hospitalized Tuesday in Montreal and later flown to a hospital in New York.

Family members had been seen coming and going from the New York hospital where Richardson was taken.

Vanessa Redgrave, Richardson's mother, arrived in a car with darkened windows and was taken through a garage when she arrived at the Lenox Hill Hospital on Manhattan's Upper East Side about 5 p.m. Wednesday. An hour earlier, Richardson's sister, Joely, arrived alone and was swarmed by the media as she entered through the back of the hospital.
for the full story, go onto google.
6:52 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


these are the activities that we did on the 'slumber party' night. unfortunately, miss emerald couldn't join us. well, couldn't blame her since it was a last minute plan. these videos actually took 2 hours to do. they even had time to practice. it was funny, they were so into it. i taught rajinder to play the guitar though. nothing much. just the few basic chords. by golly, she couldn't let go of it. haha. at 1st we used the electric guitar but then it wasn't so clear in the video so we did it the 'acoustic' way. funny how i did it by using an electric guitar. the acoustic guitar was not really picture perfect. lol. we had lots of fun. laughing, acting retarded, singing wildly and out of control-ish. ahahaha, it was all in all a very good night. i'll say a 10. but my oh my. how unfortunate that things doesn't go that well for lil miss ashley. i fell ill, had a fever and wasn't looking too good. seriously, i looked like crap. not that i always don't but yeah. this was an exception. looked tired and sluggish. but that didn't stop me from laughing and making jokes. it's just mother nature you know? haha, that's how we roll. oh shit. homework's not done. boohoo. well, off to sleep and hopefully be better in the morning. night peasants.
p.s im not in the video because i decided to just lay back and play the guitar without focusing on something. laugh your heads off.


11:25 PM



went to watch marley and me. as you can tell that i am a dog lover. seeing this movie was hard to take in. it was extremely cute and sweet in the beginning but sad at the end. i actually broke down into tears. i could even hear kim sniffling away that tissue. to make that sound more dramatic, i wasn't even sitting near her. haha. so anyways, loved the movie. have the book, haven't read it. yes, i regret. should've read it before watching the movie. oh well, what's past is past. went to the cinema at an early hour. did nothing except sat down and ate a lil bit of each person's ice-cream. yum. lol. oh, before that, kim, rajinder and i went to eat breakfast. didn't got the chance to do so at home. was rushing. hehe. then waited for them to come and bought movie tickets. weee! after the movie, we went to play games. haha, that was cool, oh and we sang a bit. =D. soon after, we went to had brunch. egg tarts and tuah baker bread for me. oh and a bit of ena's moccha and kim's passion fruit. oh and a bit of mcD fries. wakakaka. yes, a lot. around 6, went home. i was feeling a little pain in the head. lied down, laugh a lot. did super crazy videos. will post em later, hold your horsies. slept around 12, had a bad flu and the headache was coming. that's the end of my day. how did your lame life did? why don't you share eh?
p.s. watch marley and me.
i guarantee you'll be an animal lover right there and then.
till then,
hahahahaha! spastic!
11:01 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009


8:04 PM



hey there folks.
my day today was pretty cool, went out with the parents to centre point, boy, was it crowded. couldn't stand it. ugh, i hope the next time i go out, i will not face that problem. i met up with ann and nadia at the ticket counter. i looked like a funny girl standing next to them, they were so 'dressed'. you know what i mean? and i was, well, as usual, plain. i don't exactly mind really, just a thought. so, after that went to popular and got myself a very nice book(i hope) called 'the little white horse, but filmed as the secret of moonacre'. cool, the movie will be out soon. while waiting for 2pm to come, we went to secret recipe to have some drinks, where, i saw ann and nadia, AGAIN. and i joined them for a bit and left. so around 1.40, the parents and i went to hall 3 where the movie 'the reader' will be showing. by golly, there were less than 30 people in there. whew, i was glad, i wish it would be like that all the time. the movie was too deep for me, but it was okay. interesting how all those jermans and jewish fought for justice. haha, that was of course during world war 2. after the movie, we went to buy un-edible food for humans but edible for my precious darlings at merdeka supermarket and later off to island bar my aunt's place to munch a little and sing. that was practically the activities that i did today. lol. i wouldn't say 'wow, what an amazing day' but surely it was nice and simple. which was enough to complete my weekend. though i didn't go to church. =(
so, forgive me, jesus. =)
rajinder sleeping over tomorrow.
LET'S DO THIS!
=D. hahaha.
till then,
movie crackers.
6:49 PM

Saturday, March 14, 2009





you can look me in the eyes, with your sad, sad look that you wear so well, yeah.
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so, tests are over. what a relief, i kept thinking about the holidays while answering the questions in the test, it was so hard! i could automatically jump off a building without thinking twice. brain cells are just not working for me. compared this to last year, woah. the gap is humongous. anyways, glad it's over. i seriously need tuition but i am just too lazy. i thought this year is so called honeymoon year? what craps. haha, the pictures was way back when i was again, a so called dancer and that was 2 years ago. the biggest opportunity i had was when myself and other students went to KL to dance for the china and korea students under the head of ministry of education, sir hishammudin. it was totally awesome, though it only lasted for 3 days, i will never forget that experience. any difference of me? i don't know. you'll be the judge of that. but i can tell you anita and Cecilia. hahahaha. that's just the way life is. we're all grown up now huh? this is just a random post, thought about the past, and did a post about it. enjoy, enjoy!
off to breakfast now.
p.s. omgness kim, you got your dream. and blimey! am i glad. =D
till then,
recently, i miss a lot of things.
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