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Thursday, September 17, 2009
When all you can do is look ahead. Tuesday 15 September 2009: 7:56 am, i enter through the doors of what i describe as a nightmare. The Dentist. I saw people whom i wanted to give a smile to but i was too late. Instead, i had a quick rolled eye action aiming straight towards me. I looked away instantly. I let the door make a "clunk" sound behind me and head towards the counter to hand in my card. Not a smile to greet me and they said nurses and doctors should put a smile on their faces to decrease the fear in their patients. Hmm, not a very cheerful morning i assume. So, i picked a seat on the second row and looked around and after a while i took out the book, A walk to Remember. I smiled a little knowing that i had company. It wasn't a person but surely, i was satisfied. I started off with the first page and toward the end of the ninth page, i heard my number being called. "3038" in a robotic way. I stood up and when i was close to the door, i sighed. I lied down on the long electronic chair that all hospitals have and put on a pair of glasses that would avoid the ray of the light above me from getting into my eyes. The dentist then checked my teeth and said some things that i wasn't sure of but nodded my head anyways. In less than 10 minutes, i was smiling at the nurses and walked out of the room. I waited for my sister to come and get me and when i reached home, i could smell the food from the main door. It was mouth watering and just what my stomach wanted. After breakfast, i went in my room. Turned on the speaker and put in one of my AAR albums and dozed off. 11:33 am, I woke up with a major headache.Felt like i could just drop dead every time i stood up. Horrific. I went into my mum's room and asked for Panadol. She then asked me to pack my bags. "We're leaving soon." After packing, i carried my bag to the bonnet of the car and hopped in. Plucked in my earphones and pressed play on my ipod shuffle. After driving to Inanam, my cousin joined me so i wasn't quite bored. She too had an iphone to listen to her songs on her earphones. So, we were kinda in our own world. My, my. Look at what technology can do to the young people. I slept in the car. For probably an hour or so. I woke up in a sudden state and rubbed my eyes. Looked at all the billboards and written on them "Kundasang..". So, we're here. That was a nice drive. My dad then told me to open my window and i did so without questioning. For that period of time, i felt at most ease. I felt me. I felt light and i could breathe the air i once breathed before all the drama happened. I felt the wind in my face and i could not help but smile the whole way. I was cold. My teeth were chattering. And with the clothes that i was wearing, no one would be surprised. Though i was freezing, i didn't give a damn because this was what i wanted. Sunlight showed up and heated my skin for a moment. I felt warm and calm. There was not only the breeze but also the heat surrounding me. I couldn''t ask for more. It may not be a cheerful morning but it certainly was a bright and calming evening. Out of my thoughts, i heard my mum say, "Another 90 km. It might take another two more hours." I smiled to my cousin. To hell with time. I am back in the game. I am right on track and this is where i want to be. 4:56 pm, I am checking out the view and looking at what nature has to give me. Everything seems so beautiful. And here i am, still here, still strong. Still have that feeling in me. And that's what i will feel for a very long time. I am Free. .jpg)
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