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If life was a battlefield, I'd be the one living.
Ash. 19. I prefer simplicity.
"Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me and now I'm really getting tired of it. I just wanna put everything down and let go."
Music is basically the food to my soul. Literally.

Please stay, I don't bite.
Thursday, November 27, 2008




wow, finaallly people! had the beautiful chance to watch twilight on it's first day release at the movies! hehehe, it was wow i don't really think words could describe the feeling of how it was to be able to watch at last after waiting impatiently for the movie to reach Malaysia, it was a quite a day, all of us was truly excited, everyone moaning when there was hard and sad scenes, shouting at the happy and exciting ones, staring in awe at those 'lovey dovey' scenes, i bet every girl would die to be kristen stewart or shall i say isabella@bella swan? ahaha, i know i do. she's kinda cool, very timid though, mysterious and very pretty, the way she dresses is also very cool. i like her=) oh and alice was really really awesome in the movie, she was the 'i don't give a damn, but i'll want to save you if you were hurt' kinda girl. edward cullen, wow, he was the star in the movie, no doubt he's the hottest, everyone was great in the movie, beautiful places the directors chosen, good songs and good scenes.oh! and jacob black! man, he has to cut his hair for the next movie! me and ann was laughing hysterically at his cave-man looks, really not a good look for taylor, but he still is hot, no doubt about that 1! =D though a little dissapointing for me as some of the scenes or stories from the book wasn't in the movie, so yeah, the movie wasn't exactly conplete. but still, it made me love twilight more, so don't get annoyed if i tell you a lot about twilight and i'd give 11 out of 10 for the movie, that's how nice it was, none of the scenes are boring, need original DVD soon. hahaa, i had fun with ena today! it's been a long time since we hang out, miss you babe! well, gtg now.
till then,
sure,sure.
8:01 PM

Wednesday, November 26, 2008





their songs are kinda cool, so yeah, check them out. gaaaaah, another boring day come and continuing to being boring. i feel like doing something really big like dancing crazy, singing loudly, you know, have fun. but i don't think that will be happening anytime soon so i'll just sit around and be a lazy pig. that is all there is to do anyway, gee whiz, look at the time, shouldnt be wasting time writing boring posts on your blog eh? hahaha, by the way, i watched 90210 just now, it was really interesting. and nadia, i bet that you would watch it someday and go gaga with it like u did with gossip girl, besides the concept of the 2 different tv shows is there, so i guess i'll see you in the DORK club eh? haha, the more the merrirer! by golly, i wonder what is everyone doing, i was hoping that you could give me some tips on how to live life in the fun way and give me something to do. i totally need it now! hhhhheeeeeeeeeelllllllllppppp. my cry for help shows you how desperate i am. oh gosh, twilight tomorrow! wahahahahahha, weeeeeeeee. good mood coming back to me=))
till then,
suckers.
1:03 PM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

finally, i've reached the end of braking dawn. and boy shall i say it was a satisfying ending, want me to tell it here? haha, kidding. so anyways, bored as usual, just can't wait to go watch twilight with my mates. bah kla, kinda not in the mood for a long one today. tune in next time folks.
till then,
why try so hard to fit in? fight it and be a cool-ass kid.
5:19 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008



for the full video, go to youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NKre59izYe0

since this is my blog, i can embarass myself all i want. =)
lol. shall i say enjoy or laugh out loud?

till then,
xoxo.
10:47 PM


so yeah, so they said we would be friends forever. but what am i suppose to do? and yeah, the teenage years are when a person, get to learn who she is and what she wants to become, i've been through all those puberty, but can i say am matured as you? i can't really figure it out. so here i am, talking about friends and what i am going through this moment. we keep asking ourselves, was it her who changed? or was it me? was it the time to move on and be with cooler friends? gosh, i don't think the most intelligent people on earth would know how to answer that question. i thought friends last for life even if were not close like those two characters, bananas in pyjamas, they got through every problem with each others help, as they say, arent two heads better than one? i surely think so, especially with my maths like that, i'd need 10 heads, and they have to be geniuses. but what im saying is, why judge a person and give that person the cold shoulders just because she doesn't have class anymore, weren't once upon a time exist? well, it did because we went through that crap. when we were bff's, and would give each other a shoulder a cry on if we had problems with stuffs. but i guess that's over now. i keep thinking, till now, why did i put up with you through all those times when you trash talk about my class 3 dinamik, and said your class was the coolest, i couldn't feel more happier for you since you were ecstatic about the people in your class, and wow, yes, it was the coolest, but you know what, i think everyone is awesome in ways, and it's your lost you can't see us that way, there was this one time when i followed the singing competition and you said i could never have hope of winning against your classmate? yeah, i thought so too. but who did it at last? lose your pride, better yet, come up with a new one. like all of us had. you may be on top of all of us, but u can never beat the sincere in ourselves to be what we want, and how we want it, it's true friends don't change you, like you said, it was you who change yourself. so, i won't blame you. and don't you think it's immature of how one person can be so fake till u just had to believe it? oh and deleting featured friends to show us that we don't give a shit to them? oh well, this IS teenage life right? haha, your choice in life, is what makes you, you. but i'll always love you. no matter what you choose to do in life. we may not be matured yet, but yes, the parts that we go through in our adolescent lives, is just the beginning of our adventure. so pack your bags, and let's go on a hike where we'll find ourselves and finally have the guts to say im ready to live life in a mature way. haha, don't we all?

Don't say that you're sorry
For breaking every inch of my heart
I should've known from the start, now it's time to get lost
5:31 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008


buuuurrrrppp. yeah. felt good. so yeah. borrreeeddd. but today is my homie emerald's bday. wee, happy bday tutut. sooo, what shall we talk about today? haha, i went through demi's dongs just now and i found her song gonna get caught and was captivated by the lyrics.yes, still a strong fan of demi here. so yeah, it kinda remind me of ann and aimi, in a strange way but yeah also for those 'others' out there. okay, moving on, was suppose to go to church today but didnt. oh well, for goodnesssake it's been a month now, i sure hope jesus understands. right nadia? rrriiiiggggghhhtttt. weee. so yeah, so yeah, so yeah. that is what i've been saying since the beginning! but i'm sure you won't notice, though, it may annoy you try not to bother and please don't stop coming by my blog just because of my hysterical words of english, i might need to catch up with the vocabulary and all, oh no, school mode. yeah, neeeexxxxttttt. well, went to nadia's house after eating in fratinis restaurant. yuuuummm. and walk around with emerald. surprisingly, we weren't there very long, just about 2 hours and went off, it's a good thing though since my feet were killing meeee. note to self, no high-heels when 'walking around' learned my lessson, sneakers all the way, don't go all 'she's hypocrite!' on me if i didnt keep my promise. not on purpose, can't contain the temptation of wanting to be fashionable right? blablablablablbalabala. i talk way too much, that is why im going to stop now. =)
till then,
orang yang pakai kasut tumit-tinggi.
10:46 PM

Saturday, November 22, 2008

wow. what a day. went to 1 B with the parents and emerald. ugh it didnt turned out fun, actually it was rushing and walking fast, it's just lame, and the we sent emerald home and went home. i relaxed a little bit in the room while thinking of am i going to nabila's birthday party? ugh, it was so hard to make a decision, especially when i've bought her present. lol, it was quite simple, a guitar necklace and a hairclip. lol, bought it from tune in 1B. so at 7pm just now, ann and i went to nabila's mansion, wahaha,it's true it's truly humongous, and we were in awe, ugh like always. so, we ate, talked,laugh, took a few pics, guitar, talk more. hahhaha, no regrets going, it wasnt so bad after all,it was, fun. ahahha. so yeah, so now, as usual im here in the living room writing this post, part of my life, this blog thing. okay, so i had this ghastly idea oh how i would wanna look like and be. haaha, it was hilarious thinking about it. so here goes. prepare yourselves human, and try not to laugh. so yeah, as i was saying i would like to have kate bosworth's eyes, check it out. really cool. heidi kulm's nose, ahahaha, taylor swift's hair, demi lovato's voice, christina aguilera's lips, katy perry's height, maggie Q's legs, michael phelps swimming skills, yeah, that's about it i guess, lol! oh and a monkey's ass. kiddiinnnggg. oh well, i would totally look like some kind of alien. soo cool, yeah i know. ush. im wondering of what picture should i put here in this post. thinking.thinking.thinking. got it. well, good night and happy birthday emerald babe. in advance baaahhh.
till then,
birthday people.
10:01 PM

Friday, November 21, 2008

wahahhahaa, i went to the gym just now. oh gosh, i can't believe how weak i am, bt yes, i feel amzing and i bet im going to have a wonderful sleep tonight unlike last night with all the noises and the weird dreams, how ghastly. so i was at the gym for about 2 hours and i was entertained because they had tvs there. wow. amaaazzziiinnnnnggg. so me, my dad and bro watched king fu hustle while carrying some weights, doing push ups and running. hahahahaha. how fun, i hope i can keep up though. i mean my strength,wow is so low, i need to have more stamina. tu la teda excercise, pemalas tahap gaban. haha. seriously, need to move those muscles. arghhh, twilight, when will i have the chance to watch you? can't you see how anticipated i am? wahaha, im exhausted, worn out, need to bath, sleeep, chill, oh yeah, there was this org putih just now at the gym and boy was she working it out! she was unstoppable, she's like superwoman or something, she really has the strength. bet she goes to the gym everyday. even her husband left the gym earlier than her, wow. woman rules. 1-0 to men. so yeah, that's all for today.
till then,
strong women around the world.
9:35 PM


till then,
fever mever.
2:48 PM




goodbye waiting, hello finally. so yeah,twilight is finally out in the movies. yeah,and they said worldwide,international. screw that. it's only coming out in m'sia on the 27th of november which is next thursday. woo,another week ahead of me and yes, im excited, can't wait to see it, hahaha, ann, ann good for you if you get to watch it even before it comes out in Malaysia. so yeah, i watched the movie pride just now, it was about a group of black swimmers and yes,i love watching movies that has swimming in it since it's what i like to do. yup, the movie was awesome, we,people, must have PDR in ourselves. so anyways,im bored at home, watching tv, smsing, laptop, wrapping presents, yes.i know. it's fresking early to wrap xmas presents but yeah, i don't think i have time if my cousins come back from JB next sunday. can't waaaiiiiiitttt. oh gosh, if only twilight come out today, i'd be in a cinema right now, waiting for my turn to buy the tickets. muaahhhhaaahaha, so okay, i have not finish my breaking dawn, though it may seem crazy but i don't want to finish it. it's like i'm saving it for when i have midnight sun or something. hahahahhaa,i can't help it. gaaahhhh, borrrriiiinnnnggg. i know,i have been saying that a lot of times now, im thinking of what to talk about, well, i had this dream where i took my pmr results which i got 3A5B. man,that's wicked. i don't mind having that results but i just wish i'll get better ones. what a weird dream,i've actually been having weird nightmares and i don't know what the cause is. probably twilight fever! kidding. i'll stop with the twilight now, like duh, it's not like you don't know about it. the whole world does. and by diminny, it sure makes the world cheerful. haha. well,off to wrapping now.
2:23 PM


1,2,3. a,b,c.
2:22 PM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


so,today i finally got to go out. happpyyyy,away from the house away from boredom,that's a change every teenager needs. haha. i went out with Joanne and Emerald today,we had tons of fun. we walk,walk,walk to centre point then warisan square and lastly 1 borneo. we watched HSM3 at 1 borneo,it wasn't bad after all,it was sweet. a lot of singing though, can beat moulin rouge. lol. and then after that went to have some food,mcD's yo! hahaha. im not a supermodel,i still eat mcDonald's,baby,that's just me' okay,moving on,that was just an advertistment. haha. and then we went to the information center to get our shuttle bus tickets. so much ffuuuuunnn. it was my 1st time riding on a city bus with mates,a good experience. reaching warisan, joanne had to go home,so emerald and i met eme's parents at secret recipe. while waiting for them to munch their cakes, me,emerelad and her little sister went to times to look at books,my favorite thing to do, i seriously need to control my temptation of buying a book whenever i see one that is utterly mind blowing interesting. there's this book m or f,it seems interesting and since sarah used to lend me the boook in class before,i know the story line of it,and it's good. but it costs about 30 bucks? man,that's against the law. can't they sell it for just maximum 10 bucks? i know it's total bullocks but yeah,i wish i could change the economy of the world. totally unfair. so dropping the 'i wanna be a president' topic,to a more interesting one shall we? hahaha. well,today was just all that. the summary is,i had so much fun and i love you gals. weee. haha,oh yeah, i totally forgot to tell you,i saw twilight poster at the cinema just now and i couldn't stop staring at it. how dumb. but oh well,aren't we all just giving a little bit too much love just for twilight? nah,i don't think so. i don't mind giving my heart and soul for it and i bet you would too. trust me, twilight is going to be the year 2008 world's best selling movie. it's international,everywhere,it's twilight addiction now people. live with it and don't forget to be there at the cinema on 27th of november,next thursday. be there or well,miss out the mind boggling movie that was awaited by billions of anticipated fans. you decide.
till then,
so what? im still a rock star.</font>

7:52 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


so i came across taylor swift's new album cover and i was blown away. she really is a beauty. no doubt about that and i really like the picture of her album cover. oh and her new song,love story,is really nice. kan ann? hahaha. anyway,today seems fine. boring but fine. nothing extraordinary happened and nothing bad happened either. so,it's just a normal day. too bad. ugh. i wanna go out,wanna watch movies with my frenzies. hahaha. don't you wanna do that? i know it's illegal to say this and it's very hard for me to admit,i feel like barfing it out so i wouldn't have to go through all the trouble for saying it out loud. but whatever,haha. just gonna say it. are you prepared? i think. THINK i miss school. hahaha,apart from all those yucky waking up in the early morning feeling,i kinda miss my classmates and the surroundings. i kinda miss homework too. lol! yep.im the homework-doer. no,i don't do it everytime,i get lazy. nobody's perfect. oh well,i feel relieved now that it's out. so now you know my deep dark secret. keep it low eh?
till then,
wannabes.
2:25 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008





tonight i went to my aunt epeen's house for prayer,blessing new house. they just moved and after that we sang happy birthday to my bro. it's his 21st bday. oldie. hahahaha. everyone wa slooking at the cheesecake and before you know it. poof. gone. as my dad always say 'hilang semangat". lol. so, when the cake-eating was done, the family and i wen to little Italy for the 'celebration'. i feel bloated. im famished. thank the lord for that. haha. i ate pasta with norcina sauce? is that what you call it? well,from my point of view,it's delicious as a forbidden fruit. nope. not telling lies. =) the family and i could barely walk to the car when we were done. huh. that was how full we were. reaching home was a relief. went to change and tied my hair and then on my laptop. nothing new. just the same old same old. fs,blogs,facebook,msn. geez. aren't they anything more fun for us to do? huhu. im bored out of my wits. holidays are boring. i need some life. i'll find it soon. hahahhaha. oh gosh,haven't been to church for ages. i feel sinful. yes nadia, i know how you feel :). but surely i'll be going this week,need to pray for a lot of stuffs! PMR results,family,love ones,my babes out in the backyard,my cat. lol! it's okay if you think im insane now,i won't mind. so anyways,i got to know from ann that twilight isn't coming out on the 21st of november. damnit. i was really looking forward to it. i've read her books and so wanting to see the exact effects and story line oh and not forgetting the wonderful cast. bummer, it's just so wrong . but,on the bright side though,nadia told me it was still coming out in november but on a later date which is okay. i just hope this time they won't break their promise. haha. a really hard-core fan here you know. well,it's getting late,11.28pm might not be late for you owls out there but it is to me. besides,im all out of stories. hahaha. once agian,happy bday brother.
p.s.miss my sister audrey. come back fast you smartass. =)
till then,
cheesecake lovers.
11:17 PM









obsessive twilight. how can i help it? i adore the pictures!
2:45 PM


this is just wonderful. thanks to nadia, now my fonts are big and readable! weehee. you are such a genius. though you must already know that son't you? well,anyways, just wanna spill how happy i am knowing that people won't go giddy reading my blog.cheerios!
2:32 PM


testing.
2:23 PM



so yeah, been watching that movie. it's really nice! i like it! it has all those hot and super gorgeous actors and actresses in it. for instance, drew barrymore, david arquette, jessica alba, james franco, the hot teacher, jeremy jordan,leelee sobieski and so on. hahahaha. it was funny and sweet all in the same time, can't stop smiling to myself. so anyways, im soo lazy to blog beause i hate reading the small fonts. but as i said before i just adore my layout. what can i say? hahaha. it's complicated i know. so, i can tell that today will be as horiiffic as any other day. i wish i could go out and watch a movie or go shopping with friends. i feel like im in prison or something, and that is not good at all. when im at home,i feel lazy and bored and all i could do,wait,all there is to do is sleep and eat and vice versa. i bet all of u jibbers out there are having the time of your lives. sigh. boredom does strike huh? by the way, friendster sucks. but naahh, won't wanna delete it! ahahha.
till then,
hot gay dudes around the world.
2:04 PM

Saturday, November 15, 2008


ugh, i love my blog's layout, but i despise the size of my fonts! it's just too small! even i get a headache while reading it. but,whatever, i won't let that get to me. so here's some jiggly gossip about ashley greene who plays alice cullen and chace crawford who is in gossip girl,DATING!
hahaha,actually i don't really care, it's just to show ann, since she's a fan of him. kidddiiinnnnngggg bah ann. (: muahs. hmm,im so bored, i have a headache, it's now the time sadly to say, is sleep. isn't that the best? ahhaa. oh, and there's a party tonight at the weird and disgusting cousin'c place. huhu.
till then,
psychic.


4:27 PM


Hahahahhaa. finally a new layout. yes i know it's twilight but i find it very nice and pretty. so ,yeah, FOR NOW it would be this since FOR NOW it is my utterly favorite book and movie. my gosh,i see twilight everywhere! don't you? don't get too anoyed though because the words are really small, and you might need to stretch out your neck for a little bit towards the screen to read my posts. please,don't blame me for severe eye problems. =) now,all i could say is, enjoy.
p.s. nadia,where the heck are you? need to ask you about my blog. it's too good that your miss blogger. i can ask for any help at all! kidddiiiinnnnngggg. :D
till then,
evanescent
9:51 AM

Friday, November 14, 2008

hmm,what a wonderful day today. not. it's just as boring as any other day that i've gone through. well, except that emerald came over today, we barely had anything to do, so our choices were,computer,computer and wait, more computer. have you any suggestions on what to do on a boring friday? i know you would say go out,but there just aren't any plannings. die.die.die. sigh. so anyways,i can't wait for the people to come back,i would probably don't have the time to even think of the word 'boring'. yeah,huh,i wish. but i hope too. you know what? i feel extremely uncomfortable around family now,i mean not my family,just the particular ones. you know, boys? they gross me out, they're so sick, not all, just a few of them, you know who you are. grow up and be someone who has brains you suckers. ugh. you take the joy out of me. i might not even be wanting to smile at you since i feel so disgusted. so, change, if you want what's best for the family. yeah, im talking to you. don't turn back, you know your wrong. what the heck am i talking about you must be wondering? hahaha. it's just a hate post,i mean a post to spill out the nightmares that has been happening. enjoy. okay,now,something a little more cheery eh? i feel ecstatic to take my mind off of things that you know,sucks. so,i've decided to talk about my twilight saga. gosh, i don't want to read breaking dawn! i feel sad beacuse it's so close,very close towards the ending,and i don't want that to happen! ugh. im at the 5oo++ pages now,i can't stop but i can't start too. you know that feeling? hahaha. it's my first time reading these kind of books,and im glad that elioeny and sarah introduced it to me earlier this year. it really is a big hit now,the twilight movie. i won't say im not excited,im over the top. so, i guess i'll see each and everyone of you at the movies when it's out? it's a date. ewww. scratch that, i mean it'll be fun.
till then,
fiction lovers.
4:42 PM

Thursday, November 13, 2008

i read back my post and i was like 'shits,my grammar sucks'. haha.
oh well,what can i say eh?
oh yeah, my layout sucks too. will change it though. SOON.
byebye.
7:56 PM



ahh,haven't been blogging. not that anyone would notice. so,here goes my another boring post. wahaha. hmm,how dearly i miss my puppies,wonder how are they doing, bet they're happy. lol. im stuck with the big dogs now and they are sometimes a pain in the ass but i love them anyways. okay, now i will write according to the title. lol. my aunts are coming back from NZ this saturday,just in time for her birthday! haha. i can feel the party already. and then my cousins from JB will arrive kk on the 30th. how exciting! i can't wait, i know with them around i wont feel so bored anymore. hahaha. and then my cousin from texas on the 2nd of dec, it's been such a long time since i've seen her,so there's another big occasion. (: ahh, the biggest news, the sista from the same mother will be in kk on the 18th,which is still a long time to go. hahaha. but, all the same, i can't wait to see all of them! been missing them to bits,so yeah, december is practically a big month for the family and I. a lot of 'stuffs' will be happening. weddings, xmas, church, presents, birthdays. weeeeee. the fun-ness. don't you feel it? not yet? it will get to you soon. no worries. oh gosh. it was so boring today! i lied down most of the time. wanted to read breaking dawn but it was nearly towards the end so i'd rather not. changed my mind. save the best for last as they always say. so,that's all for today folks. tune in next time.
till then,
beloveds.
7:44 PM

Tuesday, November 11, 2008





ahh,apparently breaking dawn has a lot of different pictures on the cover of the book. hahaha. i bet the others have theirs too. so anyways, the fourth book seem so interesting to me,i get excited just thinking of reading it. haha. oh, and it looks like there's a fifth one too. but nadia told me that stephenie,the author, wouldn't want to publish it because of publisity offenses. that's a killer cause i would love to get it and read it. haha. i'll keep my fingers crossed anyway, i bet stephenie meyer is a legend now,oh,also a millionaire since EVERYONE is talking about her book,even my 13 yr old cousin from canada knows about it. and she said her friends finished the whole saga while i just started on the 2nd book. ugh. kids these days. lol. how frustrating. so,okay,enough about the books. yesterday was fun, ann and nadia came over to practice the dance, and im glad that we did because if we didnt,i would feel like a total ass. ahhaa. we ate a lot,and i mean a lot, dad says he's gonna bring me to gym today, you know,to excercise. hahaha. and then we SS a lot,well ann and nadia did. hahahaa. after that, we looked for dance moves from the internet,i must say,it was really helpful,without it, i might not even know where to begin! but at least, we have 3 stratigical ways of compromising our dances.i mean we can work a change to make it better. hehehhee. so.that's what we practically did the whole day, chat,pictures,laugh,eat and dance. oh yeah, i just read ann's and nadia's blog. ann,i feel your boredom,nadia,drop dead. kidding! i so do nothave astigmatism! if i did, you'd probably have it too! skinny skank! haha. but thanks anyway,i'm flattered. hahahahaha. oh bummer, blogging is so much fun! weeeeeeeehhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee.
till then,
low-class super divas.
12:17 PM

Monday, November 10, 2008

hello people of the universe. hahahahhaa.
so,today,we'll be dancing. i know the members for today is very little,but we'll work it out. ugh. im so full,i would want to excercise right away. that won't happen though since im such a lazy ass. ha ha ha. woke up quite early today,is 8.25am. is that considered early for you? so anyways, watched tv the whole friggin morning. something bout air buddies,kinky boots and ugly betty. lol. it was okay,im such a tv person,there's just nothing else better to do. i hope the dance today would be successful though because not only we can have a good workout but it would also kill the boredom around here. ha ha. i just read nadia's blog and laughed. it was quite hilarious, 'death breath'? thank god he didn't kiss ya! if not, i'll be dead too. im just kidding okay. he he. i like to read ann's blog too. it's so cheerful and well represented,unlike some. by that, i meant me. i just do it in a cincai way. mua ha ha ha. what can i say? im not such a good blogger at all. oh gosh, something has beeen disturbing my mind lately. i've been thinking about the past, about the lost and gone and that made me miss my loved ones and puppies much much more. oh no, emotional breakdown. don't worry, it only comes once in a while. so, i guess i'll be smsing bestie now.
till then,
heartbreakers.
11:14 AM

Saturday, November 8, 2008














9:58 PM


so,today was super duper fun. and the best part was,i was with friends! i don't get to do that much often and it's been a long time since i've been to the beach. though,something was missing though. :(. but anyways,won't spoil the cheerfulness of this blog. lol. today was actually our class party,it wasn't very organised well,i have to say,shukrie makes the worst planner ever! hahaha. but all in all,we had a really great time. laugh a lot, ate a lot, smiled for the pictures a lot. it was an extremely awesome day. had no regrets on going. though,something BAD did happen today. nadia's phone fell into the sea!! how bad can that get? i wpuld cry if it were me,i felt kinda bad since i was the one with the idea on jumping when the waves arrive. ugh. how lame . sorry babe. but anyways,she had a new phone! so,i figured, i shouldn't feel too guilty anymore! muahahaha. kidding. umm,how should i start my story eh? hehe. okay,today woke up at 7.30am and anita came 10 mins after that,just when i was about to dressed up. how embarassing! hahaha. and then my mum took us to the beach at 8.45am. reached there 10 mins later but ended up at the wrong beach which was stupid and sakai. so,drove again,haha,poor mummy,till we reached the 2nd beach. thank the lord,there were already nearly everyone at the beach! i thought i would be one of the 'early birds' but i guess i was insanely wrong. everyone seemed to be waking up and planning to go at the same time. hahahaa. it's sad how ann couldn't go. was hoping she could though,it would be more fun! as they say, the more the merrier! lol. didn't take much pictures though,i mean the posed ones. it was nearly all on candid pictures. mostly our butts in it too. hahahaha. sexaaayyyy. ugh. what's sickening is,my book eclipse got soaked! and i dread to see it that way,but i was abandoning my twilight saga for such a long moment that i had to read it finish. so now,im starting on breaking dawn. im closer to officialy saying 'oh, those books? yeah, i've read em" haha. kidddddiiiinnnnnnnngggg. so,that was all today, if this isn't enough for ya, i'll be posting them pictures now.
till then,
i miss ya.


9:29 PM

Thursday, November 6, 2008

if i would talk about hell,i would say and describe it as today. i had a dreadful time waiting for time itself to move. i would hope to be happy and smiling joyfully. haha. guess,i thought wrong. oh my gosh. wth am i talking about. none of you understand. but whatever. everything happens for a reason. but whatever the reason that gave me the pain,i just cannot tolerate with it. i can't accept the fact that it's happening at all. i need to wake up from this horrible dreadful nightmare. i wish i was young,meaning kindergarten years. so that i don't have to worry about anything that's going through in the teenage life. it would be paradise to be that way,innocent and playful.not worrying about anything. it's just shitty. excuse all the bad words,i don't intend to offend people. it's just the way i describe stuffs. so anyways, today, i stayed home. woke up at 8am. wanted to wake up at a later hour but that was hard to archieve since my eyes was widely open and i can't avoid the temptation of thinking on what i would do today. so,after eating,i watched tv. i practically watched it the whole day. what a pity eh? i actually felt a little regretful for not going to school. how pathetic? yes,i assure you of that. so, now,im blabbering jibberish in my blog. what an award winning hobby. i must congratulate myself on that. clap clap clap. since,now is the time to be sad and frustrated, i guess that's what i shall do. i hope,as time goes by,it would all work out and get better.
till then,
just,
don't forget me.
7:59 PM

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

so,today felt like shit. it was plain boring and lots of drama. cry,laugh till u can't anymore,grammar knowledge,friends,haters,guitar. blablabla. it was an interesting yet stupid day. omygosh,can't i make it more complicated? yes,i can. so today,went to school. wasn't as sleepy as the day before. slept a little early. 11pm. though,towards the end of the day,everything seemed fine,and i felt at ease. hehe. guitar,piccas and lots of friends. went to mulia but kim wasn't there but i stayed around anyways. it seems to be the choise of every form 3. well,most of them. i mean,i don't mind staying at my own class. it's just.. too quiet? i prefer it that way actually,but there was shithead there so,i had options,thank you very much. and then i walked to the dewan with my friend and best friend and then chatted for a while till my friend went home. after that i was left all alone. lonely,i am so lonely,i have nobody,for my own. hahaha. for fun. so anyways,went home ate maggie. was very hungry. and then ate my mum's mango cheesecake. omg. fat!!!!! ugh. die.die.die. hahahaha. but it was very good and satisfying. i don't get of that much recently. so i'll enjoy it while i can. and then i felt sleepy while watching a boring movie. not even one interesting movie on tv. wonderful. but anyways i slept at 4.30 and woke up at 6.30pm so i guess,that's approximately 2 hours then. more than enough for me,i wonder how am i going to fall asleep later at night eh? you tell me.
till then,
when two different worlds coliide.

I didn't wanna say I'm sorry For breaking us apart I didn't wanna say it was my fault Even though i knew it was I didn't wanna call you back cause i knew that i was wrong.

8:11 PM

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

so i sang today,again. i felt that it was horrible but thank you all for the praises anyway. much love. hahahaha. today was okay. we spent hours doing nothing at all in the morning and then around 11am,we all went to the dewan for our 'majlis penutupan'. it was nice,everyone cheering for each other. hehehehe. ate a lot,ate like a pig,or better yet,the way nadia puts it,barbarian ways of eating. well,she was mainly referring to me. hahahaa. it was very funny!!!! eat,eat,eat. that's life eh? so,after all that performing and stuff,my heart felt really really comfortable. it stopped the anxiety that i was feeling before. i was feeling more anxious than i ever did before,even at the auditorium,awkward not? whatever. so,after school,i went to the bus stop with nadia and rachel and waited there.since i didn't have a ride home,i followed nadia home,you know,'tumpang'. hahaha. we did quite few things,computer,drink,eat,cat,cat. adorable big cat. now,that's humongous. furry lil ass. hehehehe. and then around 6pm. home!!! woot! oh yeah today is my lovely ma's bday. hahaha. we ate lots for dinner. shit. im bloated. FAT! arghhhh. hahaha. ate spaghetti bolognese and potato wedges,ice cream and lots of water. nice ain't it?? mmmmmmmmmm. i could eat like that everyday. huhu. too bad. so,that was today. can it be more interesting?
i guess,it can.
till then.
you know you love me.
xoxo,
gossip girl.
lol.
8:14 PM

Sunday, November 2, 2008

of course im not refering to myself. so anyways,i know i have not blog for quite some time now as the internet at home is severely retarded. okay,what have i been doing u ask? haha. simple. today,we went to the grave,said hi to grandma,lit candles,flowers. you know,grave stuff. haha, it was nice in a way,it's like seeing grandma playing cards with jesus. lol. after that,we went and buy food for the brat brother at home and some bread. yum. oh,when i said 'we' i meant the parents. im sure you got that straight. so,next we went to citymall,just to stop by you know. hahaha. happy2. i bought the last book to the outstanding saga 'twilight' it costs about rm50. it was utter craziness,well,for my mum that is,for me it was just the book that counts. hahaha. but,i THINK it's worth it since it's like 729 pages long. not to brag,but that's longest i've went,quite proud if i do say so myself. i actually read a real novel this time. claps. what else eh? oh yeah,oct31st seemed to be a historical date for me. it may sound stupid and well,lame. but it was happiness and i was practically dumbfounded at it. not to my friends,but to me. so,here's what happened. the most fearing and anticipated moment was over. the results was a pain in my ear but a hopeful grin in my heart,of course i was happy, but i seriously did not expect it. i am so NOT being modest about this you guys. hahaha. but thanks anyways for all the encouragement and the support. made me feel like a winner already. so before you puke,i'll stop being mushy. my stomach was filled with butterflies,i had no appetite. i was anxious but excited at the time. for goodness sake,it was my 1st time,so,shut up. i find that the results was total bullocks but happy as well. how insane can i get eh? ahhahaa. you will never find out the results now. even if you knew,just stay low about it eh?

p.s. number 1 is very hard to achieve,unbelievable or not,shocking and disturbing it may sound. it all goes to contestant number.8.
she was LUCKY.
that's all.

till then,heroes.
4:21 PM
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