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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
sayang kinabalu. yes,i know,it's been few days since i blog. was too busy reading i guess, too occupied! lol. what am i suppose to do other than read? haha. so anyways,today at school was fine,had a lot of laughs. haha hihi hoho. you know,laughter? yeah,im sure you've heard of it. so. we went to the dewan in morning for the magic maths thing,it wasn't all that bad though,just a lil annoyed. im glad i brought stephenie meyer with me,she seems to understand the need of twilight in my mind. so,i thank you. hahaha. and then around 12 we went back to class,well not really our class but 3CERIA. haha,they had a bigger space there,space for what you say?? hahaha. practice dancing la bah. but then some crisis happened which was really sad. ;( but anyways,i got through it with a good friend of mine JaCkuline. cool name eh? haha. he's gay,very good. hahaha. ummm,what else eh? i had to to tapau food from the school canteen today to bring back home and eat.i felt poor and stupid. lmao. let's don't ask why eh? tsktsk. oh yeah,i followed cikgu moinis today,you know, to get my puppy. yeah,i was sad but i know that it will be in perfect condition. amen. hehehehehe. i guess i'll just finish here,yeah2 i know it's soooo lame and boring but what the heck,at least i still blog right? for those who are reading,muah! just cause. till then wicked people. smile eh? 4:37 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
farewells are hard to cope with.  “People so seldom say I love you And then it's either too late or love goes. So when I tell you I love you, It doesn't mean I know you'll never go, Only that I wish you didn't have to.” “Remember me and smile, for it's better to forget than remember me and cry.” “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” “True goodbyes are the ones never said or explained.” “You and I will meet again, When we're least expecting it, One day in some far off place, I will recognize your face, I won't say goodbye my friend, For you and I will meet again” “No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth.” “We only part to meet again.” you made this house quiet. it was lonely and miserable without all of your presence. but not to fear,as i will always see you again. i promise. it may not be now,but we always have later. be good and stay strong. lots of love,ash. 2:07 PM
it wasn't only me.  the sky is crying too. do u feel the pain as well? or are you just making things worse for me? aren't you suppose to be bright and sunny so that i wouldn't feel so useless? no,you wouldn't. you are just selfish and unfair. but. i know,you will look out for them. you can cry because,you are the boss. 11:34 AM
her story. it started one fine day. it was stuck in her mind whether she like it or not. it was very clear that the date was august 19th. she was 100 percent sure of it. it was a sunny and a bright day to give birth. for your information,it was a celebration of beautiful creatures coming to earth. she was overwhelmed by the news and was totally ecstatic. she couldn't resist the temptation to touch nor watch them come into the world she thought was once a big black hole. the feeling of happiness and satisfaction she felt,no one could take it away from her. week had passed and she watch their every movement. from opening their eyes to wagging their tails to bark and wail for their mother. she was there every step of the way. every night she would get worried. worried of all the possibilities that there is to,for examples the drain,the big dogs, those bad thieves. all there is to,she wouldn't have missed. at school,she was eager to be with them,to give them snacks and jump around playfully with them. it's what makes her the happiest,then. as time flies by,through her eyes they were growing fast,eating much and also shitting a lot too. but that didn't bother her. she was glad she was surrounded by happiness and it's where she felt needed the most. she wouldn't mind getting dirty and jumped at because that's what makes it all worth while. she would smile and grow very very worried if anything happened to them. she thinks that they're all she has got,they were not only her faithful companions but also her,sad to say bestfriends. though as time goes by and the people around her got fed up and angry and just wanted to get rid of them,she knew that the world isn't fair and had to give them away. you would never know. scratch that,nobody would ever know how much she cared and loved them. it hurts her the way love fails in a relationship. of course she thinks it was very foolish of her to react in such a way since of course they were only little innocent puppies,she couldn't control her feelings. it was just to hard for her to accept that they are in another's hand and are being loved by some one else and not her. and while her tears stroll down her cheeks while typing this most stupid but most fragile story,she thinks to herself,she gave all the love she had in her heart to them and nothing could ever separate them. nothing. but the thought that comes to her head. will they ever remember her? will they ever think about her while she was with them?of course no one could answer and no one could read their uncivilised minds but im sure that they will hold on to me till their little hearts die. the tears won't stop here,she knew of it. of course they are just puppies,but they're all she has and will always remember. please, don't forget,me. 11:14 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
soccer and jiggly boobies.  i just got back from eating pizza with my aunt,cousin and my aunt's friend and her children. lol. it was nice of her to spend us the pizzas. it was good and yummy! hahha. i only ate two though. i usually go for 3 or 4. i know,im a big eater and can grow fat anytime soon. so anyways, futsal today was fun and also dissapointing because we dinamik only got second. but whatever. at least we beat Ceria! wahahhaa. what fun but im totally worn out.i feel so tired i could just go to sleep in a minute. like poof! but i really have to bath my babies 1st! they're much more important than sleeping like a log all day and since im not going to school tomorrow,i think i can just increase the limit of my energy for a bit. hahaha. omgosh. the singing thing is so annoying! what song? what is on my mind? do i wanna do it? am i that scared??? oh well. in the meantime let those scary questions answer by themselves. i guess that's all for today. i miss my puppies!! gonna spend my time with them even if it means falling asleep while petting them. how ironic. sue me.till then smartasses. 3:25 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
bad moood. today is such a breakdown. i was bored. i feel like im in some of crisis or something. sigh. earlier today,the internet was not accessable so i slept for 3 hours which is a lame way to spend your time. im aware of that thank you. ugh. i feel so annoyed. she is just so irritating and noisy. wouldn't stop talking about giving away the puppies. yada yada yada. FYI,i know what im suppose to do. you don't have to talk about it every single day. im sick and tired of it. serves you right that im a hard head. so what if im a useless kid? i don't give a damn. so anyways,im thinking of going to school tomorrow. im in the futsal team. so what do you think? hahhaa. i know im no soccer girl but the interest is there. just don't show it. friday i have this dental appt which was postponed cause i didn't keep track of the date correctly,my bad. i need to bath the doggies on friday after the stupid appt so they will look beautiful and clean during the process of 'giving away'.God is unfair. to me that is. you know i love my puppies but you still want me to give them away. oh gosh. im going to have an emotional breakdown anytime soon. i can feel it in my veins. till then. you know i'll always love you and will always be there for you. no matter where you are. 6:27 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
sad,angry and frustrated. what can beat that eh? i have a feeling that im going to hate what im going to face this week. i hate you. they are mine. 7:38 PM
funny oh kan.  so. school today was boring and yet so funny. hangman was a stupid game and yet we were so addicted! but..not for long. after a few rounds,well,not quite few but a lot,we ended up listening to the orientation. hahhaa.weird. so,went back to class and did nada. it was totally insane! it's like the end of our school years or something! gosh. i do not wish to go to school anymore for it is boring and is taking my time of the beauty sleep.haha.joking. so,here's what im going to do,im not going to school tomorrow! yeah! i want to wake up late,read a book and go oooh,cutie,sweety with the puppies. yes,i may be weird,but. you just gotta have me in your world. no! that does not sound corny! it was just your imagination! so anyway,im in this stupid singing thing. and as far as i can tell,i hate it. of course,it may not be true,but it's the least i can say to get me out of this wrecked situation. and yes,i do want to. it's just that people talk you know? not only do they talk,but they gossip too. not only that. they are just plain mean. yes. they are. so,help me! i myself am not even sure i can do it and there is only a few of them who knows about it. so,be a good sport eh? and don't spread it out. sigh. im as bored as a stick clinging onto a coconut tree. i so wish i can go to citymall tonight! oh why does the mother doesn't understand my situation? ahaha. answer is simple. "you think it's always about you,you,you and you! i have lots to do child! let me do my work and then i'll think about it!" whew. wouldn't want to go through that eh? but since im a spoiled brat like everyone else i would answer "i understand,but can't we just buy the books and go home? it would shut me mother dearest,i promise" till thens. ann farts, nadia breathes in. 4:08 PM
Monday, October 20, 2008
burings oh. But somewhere we went wrong 4:38 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
just cause.   so today was boring. didn't get to go out but i really hope that i could later at night go to citymall with kimberly to get the books that im longing to want. lol. im crazy of books. read,read,read. so,tomorrow is the 1st day of school of freedom. how would that feel eh? hmm,i hope it won't be boring. if it is,then tuesday is a big no no for school.hehe. i woke up at 12pm today,made milk for the doggies and bandaged lucky cause it's leg was swollen. and then,i ate. and then i played computer.sigh. i have nothing to do at home!! i need to get books! i must find a way. since the big dudes are going to a wedding dinner tonight,im gonna have to find a way. totally desperate? u will never know. o my gosh,and those stupid school books. wasting my time. all the students have to wrap the books. i hate doing it because there's a lot of em and i don't know how long it would take. i know,i know i should've start earlier but oh well,i can procrastinate all i want since pmr is sooo over. till then. xoxo 5:52 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Demi lovato.  she's hot. seriously. she may be from camp rock busting some voices with the jonas brothers but she certainly is a great singer. she's only 16 but already living the hollywood life. sigh. so,check out her brand new album called 'don't forget'. im totally in. buying her cd that is. wouldn't mind how much it'll cost. hehe. aren't i a spoiled brat? hehe. before i log out from this blogging thing,i promise you won't regret listening to her. she's so much better than miley cyrus. haha,no judgement. but yeah. my point of view! so. till then. rock on,demi. btw! the house bunny was hilarious. utter comedy. it was bloody crazy and extremely fun. must watch. bye bye suckas. kidding. muah 9:25 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008
twilight.  it was introdue to me by Elioeny. she brought the book to school and was telling me about it. i find it was extremely interesting and before i know it,there too was a movie about it. it stars robbert pattinson who is as hot as salsa.lol, kristen stewart,who is hot too. no doubt. but anyways, watch it. it's about vampires,mortals,love with conditions,mean guy,hero,bla,bla,bla. watch the trailer and you know what i mean. the movie only comes out in November,which is far away.i just can't wait! 11:39 AM
whew. lemme hear you say it's over. so PMR is over,i guess it's time to be free? oh bugger. yes,it is, and im going to live it to the fullest while i can. so anyways, my phone needs credit,my brain is worn out from all the studying,haven't been 'online' for quite some time and now, the deed is finally done. i feel like i've got millions to say but i'll make a summary out of it eh? today was geography,it was okay. i really want an A for it. haha. as if. so anyways,i might be going out with kim,nadia and rachel tomorrow. for fun. you know,have fun,laugh,laugh. hope ann could go to. cheer up,kiddo. haha. i bet everyone's noses are facing the computer screen now. especially nadia.blog,blog,blog. lol. so,what am i going to do today? read,laptop,handphone,music,trailers, puppies and as they always say when your just lazy to write it all. etc,etc. so,i was thinking about my chinese yesterday and thought t was hard. really tough. i guess i was just nervous and maybe i did'nt prepare enough. oh well,the interest is not there at all. what am i suppose to do? no pressure please. i feel that it's a 'MUST' and i don't see it in a way that it's important and all. but i know that deep inside,i do feel a lil proud of taking chinese. i feel that's just the way it is. it may be more,but it wont hurt. okay,just stop this. NEXT,i think im gaining weight. i think my weight was from 43 to 45 kg. im wondering if that is good or just fat,fat. hahaha. whatever, AAAAAAAA. Cristina Yang, grey's anatomy You know, I know a liar when I see one because I am a liar. 11:08 AM
Thursday, October 2, 2008
oh gosh. will update lots and lots of stories. after PMR. till then. cheers. 10:55 PM
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