Welcome to the daily rants of Ashley Debbie C.
Ash. 18. Let us pat each others' backs instead of stabbing em shall we? Let us also give each other high fives if you're keen on just living life.
Just an ordinary girl seeking answers and wanting to go through the "good" times in life.
I should warn you that I sometimes don't make any sense and yes, I'm a lonely blogger. Boohoo.
Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me and now I'm really getting tired of it.
I just wanna put everything down and let go.
Music is basically the food to my soul. Literally.
Darkness fades, here comes the rainbow.
Please stay, I don't bite.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Oh boy, I can really feel the pressure now.
Midterm is next Monday and shoot I am not fully prepared. I wish it didn't have to start on Monday. One day extra would make a whole lot of difference! So yeah, might not be on here for a little while (like that has ever stopped me) Haha. But seriously, I have gotta keep my pace up if I wanna be the best. So, wish me luck! p.s. Happy Birthday Sheldon! p.p.s I am at a destructive point of my life. I should be focusing on my studies but instead I went out to buy Left 4 Dead 2 with my sister just now. Oh well, at least I'm done with one assignment? Yes, that certainly deserves a break to watch Gossip Girl before I continue onto Finance. Cheers Amigos. x
6:09 PM
Saturday, February 18, 2012
It sure ain't nice to be you.
So, I've been MIA lately and I guess I needed it. My soul Has finally find its peace and I'm quite relaxed now compared to weeks ago. I've come to accept the fact that I'm oh-so-single but I've also accepted the fact that I'm okay with it. I mean, in time, I'm sure love will find its way to creep back into my life. For now, I'm focusing on being comfortable with myself and what life has got to offer me. Friendship has played a big impact in my life. Just recently I've known who to trust and what not to tell. Some secrets should be left unspoken but with those that are already out, was it wise to do so? Or will it become an even more bigger issue than it already has? When life gives you lemon, you make lemonade. I've been given tons of lemon and yet my lemonade has never turned out sweet enough to please people. Sure, life isn't about pleasing people but it would be nice to have someone think positive about you. What am I babbling about? Well, I've been stabbed at the back and I'm still wondering why it doesn't hurt that much. Is it because it didn't go through my guts where I know I should be taking wise actions or is it just cause you're not worthy of my time? I would love to be all cool and mighty to say that it's the second one but that wouldn't be the whole truth. I've always cared and always will. No matter what you do or say, I'm going to be here. Cause well, I guess that just makes me more of a better person than you'll ever be. No one might not understand what I'm saying but if you do, I salute you! Well, soon it'll be 3am. Oh, the time! Tick tock tick tock. Sigh. Life, the good moments always never lasts but the bad moments never lingers as well. It's all fair and square baby. Hit the lights, it's time to dream away. x
2:15 AM
Sunday, January 29, 2012
I wish you didn't have that one thing I need.
How was your Sunday? Mine was splendid except for the fact that I got seasick for a while on the ship. "Raja Laut" as they call themselves is a really sweet and relaxing ship. Very convenient too and the people on it are just great. Went snorkeling but was quite dissatisfied at what I didn't get to see :( I was throwing my own pity party when I've come to a realization that I didn't bring any bread to feed the fish as that would always "create a crowd" or shall I say, a school of fish? Too bad. Though, I gotta say that the waters was really clear. Probably next time eh, Ash? I shot a video, just for fun with my cousin Imo when we arrived on the Island. We were so intrigued by the little crabs we saw and how fascinating it was to touch them. Yes, we're just two young people with nothing better to do but to play with little creatures and take a video of it. So, you guys shall watch that later? I hope so. Since "School" is starting tomorrow, I might as well hit the sack. Early? Yes. I gotta get use to it or I shall never enjoy the early morning breeze ever again. I love you, but you already knew that. So, what are you gonna do about it?
10:40 PM
Out of sight.
Be careful of what you say or hear. Words are the easiest way to bring someone down.
12:18 AM
Can't get it off my mind.
Society kills. It really does. So anyways, what have you been up to? My life is in need of a big change. I'm totally confused about a whole load of shit. How can a simple thing turn into such a sticky situation? I wish it was candy stains off my fingers, so it'll be easy to just lick em off but no. Sticky situations such as these needs special treatment. How do I solve em? Should I use my head or my heart? My my, the last time I used my heart, I got torn apart, just like paper being shred. How sad, there goes little me crying and trying to pull everything together by myself. you have got to give me little credit for being strong about it. Or was I? Is it possible to be addicted to a certain kind of sadness? I have a feeling I know the answer to that oblivious question. Since.. Well, I am. Good night. x
12:00 AM
Friday, January 27, 2012
That time of the month.
I can't believe I've been wasting nearly all my mornings sleeping and just laying around like there's no purpose in life. Wait, I have no life. Ugh. Anyways, been waking up at noon most of the time and I feel like I've wasted a lot. Not only time but a whole load of things. Before you know it, it'll be night time. Sigh. All these precious days wasted. Also, I've been pretty sick these past few days. Yeah, I know. Feeling unwell during CNY is bad. To top it off, I feel like I'm having my worst period attack ever. It hurts to the core, I can't even stand straight. Sigh. I know this is a blog and I'm complaining a lot thus the more reason to rant rather than to have someone not give a shit bout all the things that I've just typed. So, bear with me. I'm in crucial pain and here I am blogging about it thinking it would help the situation but nope, I'm still in pain and wanting to lie down when I just got up about an hour ago. So, what's my dilemma now? Oh God. There are just too much things going through my mind right now. I was hoping things would get better, which they slightly did at some points but future wise, nope. Not getting any better. The feeling of not knowing what to do and being unsure all the time has sure put me into this rough patch. I'm seriously doomed. Help? Or you can just get me pizza. Whichever.
2:16 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Baby, I roll up.
That's all I gotta say for today's update. They're totally cool. Here's one of my fav vids from them.
Enjoy!
4:58 PM
Memory lane
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